“In order to heal, sometimes you need to feel…”
This past week has been interesting. The full moon in Virgo last Sunday really took a lot out of me. As I’ve deepened my yoga practice I’ve become so much more in tune with astrology and various spiritual connections with myself and what’s happening. It’s fascinating to me. This past full moon in Virgo was felt deep for me. Most full moons are often energetically draining and emotional, depending on your sign and astrology chart.
Right before the full moon I had some unexpected and disappointing news come to me. I cried a lot and did my best to elevate my spirits to a better place. As I tried to overcome all the emotions I was feeling, I realized that sometimes you just need to sit still, to feel the emotions, let them pour out, and feel more, so you can help heal. Once I was able to get the tears out and grief, I was able to begin a new emotional journey back to that content place I strive to be at. I realized sometimes you need to take the lessons, the things that happen, and accept them for what they are. This full moon for me was a giant test… but isn’t everything? In the midst of my natural flow, and right when I thought everything was aligning as planned, a shift happened and suddenly it felt as if things were falling apart. But truthfully, they were not, obstacles are often enlightening tools. Despite the grief, tears, confusion, anger, and uncertainty, there was a bigger lesson to be learned. It comes back to trust. Trusting that as I connect more to who I am, what I want, and what I seek, I’m able to confidently watch the contrast unfold, as I know that things will work out exactly as they should.
The full moon continued to be felt deep for me days before and three days after. I even had physical symptoms manifest its way into my body as allergies, stomach sensitive’s, no hunger, emotional, and very tired. After purging my emotions during those few days, I am now able to sit back and reflect. Miraculously enough, all my symptoms were gone once the moon passed (Wednesday). Yoga teaches us to connect from a new place, a place of ease, peace, and stillness so we can go more inward. To breath easy in the asanas and challenges, and to overcome any other suffering by focusing on the cadence of your breathe. With this full moon I was able to purge. I took the challenges and unexpected news as a test. I was able to feel who I am, a reality check in trusting myself, and I was able to cry and feel deeps parts with in me that perhaps are no longer me. I felt more and allowed my emotions to creep up and be expressed, and in doing so, I was able to heal myself more fully. I realized my fears, my patterns of being, and saw what needs to shift and dissolve. I realized the contrast in what happened and that sometimes what I think I really want, may just be an illusion to what is really best. Because when I’m able to connect more to me and my intentions, I’m able to realize what things I truly want for me, and trust the universe to align and provide. I’m able to tune back in and trust that what I really seek and want, will naturally manifest. Sometimes the universe throws us curveballs and unexpected outcomes. That’s part of the journey of life. By checking back in with yourself, feeling what you need, and listening to the signs, you can bring yourself back to true reality and fill yourself with abundance, as let the flow connect more to you.
Last week I did not feel like myself. Something was off, my mind was in a fog, and I did not feel like me. And that is okay. Rather than reacting or sharing with everyone that I was sick and ill and under the weather, I paused. I felt what I needed, I accepted what happened, I eventually laughed at the news, and was able to commit more to who I am and what I really want. There are always tests and obstacles that come around. It’s how we react to them that dictate how we grow. As we all evolve more on our mat, we help deepen out practice off the mat as well. To teach ourselves how to breathe easy, how to tune in, how to feel more, and most importantly, how we are able to heal ourselves my simply connecting from a deeper place. Yoga, the union of mind, body, and spirit. As I deepen my yoga practice I am able to explore different sides of myself. I’ve learned to connect and unite all that we are with everything and everyone around. Winter is ending, the end of a season that promotes deep peace and inward reflection. These last few weeks, and this full moon in Virgo are a time to purge, to experience what the last cycle has brought, what signs and illusions have become evident, so we can clear ourselves for the new spring season with a solid foundation. Purge yourself, and past behaviors, and things that are not aligned with your truth, and heal yourself. Recognize that sometimes the mind and the body, need to react and feel various sensations to help inspire your spirit to cleanse and elevate to a new place.