The Life Changing Yoga Class

Hey Hey,

So I’m a Yogi… I mean I’ve spent far too many hours in the yoga room teaching, breathing, taking classes, and learning how to bend and touch my toes. haha. Seriously. I’m sure the yoga trend is annoying to the common man, however to me it’s been life changing.

I’ve taken many classes, experienced some teachers, and tend to have the kind of personality that sticks with WHO I like. Yup. If I resonate with you, I’ll see ya regularly. I can sincerely say, there are few teacher that I really really love and resonate with fully and completely…. however, that’s another post and long subject matter.

Today I took a class that changed my life.

Now, I have had many life changing ah-ha moments, and a ton of super feel good juicy classes that I’ve walked out of inspired. I can tell you I’ve experienced exceptional yoga classes that seem to somehow ‘hit me’ right where I needed at the moment, on that day. Today was one of those days… however, today was exceptional. It wasn’t until alter, after I basked for a few hours in the bliss that I experienced, that I realized how truly changed I had become, and am now able to reflect on the profound hour I had today.

So I walk into my friends yoga class, who had apparently forgotten that I was coming, and in the locker room she greets me with a hug, huge smile, and loud hello and shock that I showed up. Right away I felt the love, and was happier to be there. I said to her, “I’m so excited to see what you have planned for class.” hahaha. In my inner mind I intuitively knew whatever she had crafted would be what I needed to hear.

… So carry on into the yoga class, she walks in, enthusiastically and greets us and immediately gets to her point, I mean the theme of the class. She talks about the inner ‘cave’, something often unspoken, unheard of, and very foreign in this western yoga culture. While she preaches with a kind flirty attitude she tells us about this ancient yoga philosophy and how the whole point of yoga is not the outside world, but actually taking it inside. In fact, the inner yoga journey is the hardest and more challenging aspect of yoga…. hence why most people don’t go there, or any where near that ‘path’.

The inner cave that yogis speak about, is actually tuning inside ourselves and learning to reconnect to the heart. The whole purpose of yoga, to me at least, is learning how to create love inside, and how to feel those blissful sensations in every moment and every waking day, so that we can all vibe in our highest potential, which is LOVE.

(Alright, enough about that, I think that’s enough to get you centered)

Ironically, the whole class was structured around backbends. A smile lifted to my face because backhanding is my favorite thing to do in yoga… and with this specific teacher, I love it because she leads my in safely and helps me ‘go deep’. hahaha cliche I know. Seriously, there is something to be said about someone who knows how to teach yoga, properly set us up, and put us in positions that actually align and help our body. (no joke). When you can bend, and be safe, and no break, the experience is unlike anything else.

So I’m hyped up, excited, ready to open my heart and dive into my inner cave. Yes, she does just that. With a symphony of appealing music, and her own heart of gold, she leads us through some warmups, and a fast body set up and flow. In her instructions she constantly reminds us, legs strong. It wasn’t until later she brought it all together and showed us why we need our legs strong…. the legs must be strong to support and open the heart. WOW. Bliss bomb realization right there, in that moment! (Okay, you really had to be there for that one, but I post it anyways).

Are you ready for the kicker? I mean the part that changed my life?

Here it is…

After moving, shaking, bending, backhanding, and doing a totally new version of my all time favorite pose, CAMEL, we eventually reach the floor. On our backs, I thought we were done…. but no not yet. I’m ready to just be, fully tap out, close my eyes, escape, and something inside me reminds me to be present. See i have a good tendency and bad habit to tune out totally and be in my own blissful world in yoga. haha. I had to keep reminding myself to stay here, and be here now.

My teacher says, “well, we are almost done. Two rounds of wheel pose now.”

I gasp inside. Another favorite pose! I love this pose because in the past, I’ve always been able to do it and no matter how depleted I feel, I go for it anyways. Except now, I wasn’t feeling it. My arms hurt, my wrist hurt, and I had to dig to find my strength. I pushed my willpower and told myself I can do this. So I did. I pushed up into wheel, held it, felt it, cracked my heart open, and came down. I already decided I’d sit the second one out. I’m a cautious person, and I have wrist injuries and can’t do chadrungas or anything crazy on my hands. Man, were they killing. Then my teacher spoke…

I don’t know exactly what she said. I can tell you she brought the class full circle. She said one more pose, wheel. Okay, we knew that. Then she added, for a timed minute. Oh shit I thought. She went on to say, that opening the heart is not about what we do on the outside, it’s about the opening on the inside, and how devoted we can be. She used the word FORTITUDE. (Forgive me, because you had to be in the moment to witness her words and experience the real dialogue). Regardless, it obviously hit me, and motivated me. I told myself, with everything about my life, and everything that has gone wrong, and all the failures I’ve endured, I still cannot give up…. Because that is the yoga path.

It’s not linear, it’s not straight, and it certainly is not a scripted easy version of reality. In fact, the moment you veer off that other path, the one most people live, you want to turn around and run. Because roadblock and hard lessons and obstacles will hit you. You will be challenged more than you knew humanely possible. When you cross that bridge, there is NO going back. I mean, once you wake up to reality, it’s like, “fuck, why did I do this?” Okay, sorry for those who have no idea what I’m saying. Seriously, the inner path of yoga is where you take your own yellow brick road ride of life and get transformed. I mean in more ways than you know. Nothing and no one can save you, and in the darkest moments all you can do is remind yourself that one day everything will be okay…. and yes pray and chant and breathe and sincerely bow down and do whatever it takes to stay alive.

I don’t mean to scare you. I’m just letting you know, that inner cave is not found easily. However, when you get a glimpse of it, its something so surreal that something deep inside calls you and almost forces you to keep going after ‘it’. After all, no treasure is found easily, everything is always developed, designed, and discovered, after many test and trials. Okay I got off subject… back to the class….

So I get my courage and I tell myself I’m going to do it. I erase the fear based thoughts, the worries, and ignore the pain in my wrists. I go for it. I push up into bridge. The timer starts. I feel strong in the legs, open in my heart. Dam it feels liberating. Then my wrist literally feel like they are doing to break and explode. PAIN. I’m in the moment, I know I can’t quit. No way. The mat practice is a total reflection of life, and what happens outside. With what I’m going through in my own life, I knew quitting would be the old me. See, I’ve learned to become a fierce warrior…. So I carry on. Then the teacher changes the song, turns up the music, and as if we are in a movie a SOULFUL ‘take me to the river’ song plays on LOUD while we backbend and open our heart to a bigger force beyond us. (Sappy I know, but in the moment, totally persuading).

Without thinking, my own instinct has me come down to my forearms, while in wheel pose. There is probably a fancy name for this pose, I don’t know it. Imagine me in wheel pose, heart open, head back with my forearms on the ground pressing my head and chest up. I struggle at first, and then I’m actually amazzzzed I am in it. How the hell  did that happen? I shocked myself. See I’m not the flexiest yogi, and my shoulders are rarely that open. (Mad props to the yoga teacher and her instructions).

So I’m in the pose, there is a timer, I’m flooded with everything happening and my only thought is I got this, push through, we are almost done.

Suddenly the teacher shows up, and her legs are pushing against my legs (this is an adjustment) and she’s talking to me (don’t remember exactly what). Then her hands press up against my back and she propels my heart up, to a new level. Holy fuck. That did something. She’s saying something, probably words of encouragement, I can’t remember. She stays there, perfectly supporting me, and actually helping me break my hear wide open, in a way I don’t believe I’ve ever done. All I can do is take it in, breath, and be there.

Before I know it, the minute is over, the teacher is gone and I’m laying on my back soaking it all in.

You want to know what liberation feels like, its THAT.

I bliss out. I mean really, I’m high as a kite, done, in some other love heartfelt universe, my body is open, and I’m on cloud 9. The class ends. I don’t want to get up, but I have to get somewhere, so I do. I can’t even process what happened. So I don’t, I come into reality and move, get dressed, and do back into my day.

Later it hits me. Holy fuck. THATS what happened.

See I have a lot of childhood wounding. Call it my own suffering, sacrifice, karma, I don’t care…. but what I can tell you is I’ve never felt really supported my whole life. I’ve never ever experienced love in a supportive environment. Believe me, my mad healing process, and my own inner yoga journey has not been easy. Then again, freedom, never is.

So this teacher, she touched me this day, and did something utterly profound. Besides her yoga class, the theme, her words, her teachings, and philosophy, she supported me. That backbend I believe will forever leave my heart wide open. See the back of the heart is symbolic of how we receive and get support. She taught me that actually. Many backbends later, I’m still always working on letting love in, and accepting love from others.

In that class she left an imprint on my heart. Sitting here writing this, I still feel it. That support, that hand, that loving touch, pushing me up, helping me, inspiring me, empowering me, and reminding me that I don’t have to do this alone…. or even suffer through it. In fact, what I needed, and what I believe we all need, is the friendly reminder that a little love can go a long way, and when we help others we can leave an everlasting impression.

It’s true life comes full circle. Often we are too busy to see it, or witness is. Today reminded me that no matter what is happening in our life, there is always a reason and a way to be inspired and reminded of how lucky we are to be alive. I know darkness, I’ve had moments in my inner cave where the depth of emotion and deep suffering hit me so hard I wondered if I would make it through. There were many tears, lonely nights, periods of isolation, and my only hope that one day I’d find people to skip merrily with and journey on this crazy yellow brick road of life.

Well towards the end of my own exploration in my inner cave, I can say that life is pretty meaningless unless we have supportive and loving people in our life.

While family, friends, coworkers, and a ton of others may not accept you, love you, or treat you well, never get discouraged. Somewhere out there there are people who can help you, support you, and even show you a better road that may actually lead you to the love that you desire.

This teacher is my guru and the shining light who touched me years ago, and today we come full circle in watching each other journey into our own cave of the heart. Today she closed my chapter, helped me end my own cycle, by leaving an imprint that will forever hold me up, lift me up, and help me know I’m not alone, and in fact always supported and loved in that place.

No matter how challenging the inner cave journey has been, I can say I’ve developed strength I never knew I had. I know now that the deepest essence of love, is not in what you do, but actually, in who you touch. 

Fuck, if we could all get that, I believe our world could instant transform.

We will slowly. Like wheelpose, we all need the proper alignment, instruction, and guidance to get us there. We all need to reminder our own remarkable abilities, believe in our faith, and surrender what we think, to actually living what we know.

This is the Yoga …. The inner path, the cave, and destroying the ignorance that has robbed us of our own greatness.  If we, individually, then collectively, could be willing to dive into our heart space, then maybe, little by little, we could we could create a loving culture that loves to love, gives to help, and supports, because we know that we are all in our cave, and wanting to feel free again.

Keep your heart open.

Keep bending until you break.

Even when you break, rise up,

and never give up on what you know is inside of you.

It is my learning to be open, we can always feel free.

Our hearts can stay open, when we choose to let love lead…


❤ May all beings live happy and free ❤



Living Your Truth.

Yoga teaches us that the truth of who we are is within us. It is at our core, our essence, and the pure awareness that allows us to really be ourselves and live as ourselves. Truth, and that connection with your soul, is something so many don’t know. Because we are not taught to live in our truth, and often when we do, others don’t like it.

At our core we are all kind human beings. Society and how we are raised changes us. It lodged into our mind and beliefs crazy stories about who life needs to be, who we need to be, and how we need to show up. Often in that controlled form of growth, we loose sight of who we really came here to be. Or worse, we get caught up in what we are told, and live in fear of allowing ourselves to truly express our divine nature of who we really are.


The irony is that if we all could learn to sustain ourselves and live open minded and accepting of others and ourselves, then we could break free of a lot of struggle and suffering. Yoga tells us that we should be allowed to live in a world where we can nobly express our truths and communicate with other people. Hopefully, that is coming from a place on honesty, integrity, and no fear in asking questions or resolving problems.

Our ego and mind and past conditioning will always step in and tell us what is best. That same ego will protect us from whatever may hurt us. The voice may enable you to make the right decisions, because a bigger subject, like a boss or job, is at risk. It is sad the way our society has evolved, and that it is okay to hide the truth or change the truth, if means protecting yourself.

Living your truth is really quite simple. It amazes me that more people are afraid to get in alignment and show up in the yoga way, of living honestly, and truly accepting of everyone and everything. There is abundance in this world, and no need to scram or lie to try to get more. If we all could show up and live truthfully we could eliminate a lot of dogma our current culture is currently hypnotized under. The yoga way tells us that everyone was born to be great, and it is in finding that power that allows us to express our inner light and use it in the world to shine. Yoga, or unity consciousness, allows us to be free, as we are, and to use our talents and gifts in remarkable ways. When you live that truth, that we are all connected and all working for the same goal, then you also know there is no reason to lie, play victim, or reprimand others for being themselves. It is living in the fear, or doing actions that promote fear, that hold you back greatly.

Let truth be your guide. Never be afraid to stand up for what you believe in. Ask those questions. Talk to those people. Don’t let your own moral values and choices block you and keep you living in a prison of control. Everyone will judge you in your advancement. People may not like you for what you say and choose to do. However, those people really envy you and secretly admire your fearlessness to step into your truth and not be held back in fear. In their heart, they probably know you are taking right action. Because when you honor yourself and live your truth, there can be no wrong way. Only silly people who don’t yet understand and are afraid to live in that light.


(synchronistically after I wrote these words, and posted, this message appeared on my tea. 🙂 Believe in magic and no mistakes!)

Your truth is your connection to your soul. It is who you are. It represents your values, morals, beliefs, and how you treat others. It goes beyond character. To be honest, for us all, the truth within us, is a kind open hearted individual. Though we forgot this, and choose to believe otherwise. The Yoga is how we learn to get back to our happy whole state and to release the barriers and beliefs that have robbed us and helped us live with ignorance. In the unyoking, you are challenged, and asked to step forth into someone greater. The yoga is the union of your truth, and the development of your soul.

When you know that, and who you are, and can show up with that essence, then you know you are living. There is no way but to love. Love yourself first, then love others, and acknowledge how you can shine love on the world, and teach others how. Truth is a simple concept. We make it complex. We fail to communicate and conspire to stay stuck in our old bad habits, and blocked beliefs.

The truth sets us free. Always. The truth will hold you back as long as your conform in that other ego way. Yoga helps us align to see that truth, and not be fearful, and live more openly with each other. In finding your truth, you find your way, and can create a better world, with more joy, more love, and so much more bliss!


Begin Again


Life moves fast. There are always unexpected rip currents, rapids, and waves of emotional, mental, spiritual shifts that often leave us grieving some kind of outcome. Why is that? Human nature likes to hold. We find value in what we have done, what we have received, what has happened to us, and enjoy sharing the gifts that universe brings…. until something goes wrong, and a mysterious event propels our entire world to change. We don’t like to share about the darkness, so we hide and forget that those moments that make us crash are actually opportunities to rise above…and especially – change. We grieve for better a life, more people, better job, more money, etc. We forget about the basics that keep life simple, yet so happy: happiness and health. The extreme high of merely being alive, in a body, with a heart, and with the opportunity to choose your life as you experience it.

Of course things will happen, people will come and go, and other endless tides of uncertainty will manifest. No doubt there will be change and sometimes disaster, and that is okay. If you could take a moment to pause, take a deep breathe, feel your feet in the Earth, and look upon the horizon, at the sun shine, for the beautiful day that is, then maybe a new perspective would be seen. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Whatever you are doing, whatever your experience is, is perfectly okay. You are not meant to get somewhere or achieve something. Though, many are naturally inspired to work towards that. The beauty of life is found in the stillness, noticing, and being aware of the precious gifts that we are around us all daily. Some days they are harder to find than others, yet they remain. It may be a good friend, a loyal partner, a fun job, or living in a place that brings you, your soul, happiness. Be grateful. When the storms of life cause you to take a new road or walk a new path, accept what was with love. Forgive your mistakes and childish acts. Dismiss when your emotions got out of hand, and laugh about that time things went a little weird. Love the people who have helped you gain wisdom, clarity, and most importantly, made you smile. You are wonderful. Life is wonderful.Take a fresh breathe on the horizon of your life and see the wonderfulness you have already.

We move fast, we forget, things happen, and there is a lot to grieve about, complain about, and many things to fix within the Universe. Truth, I won’t deny it. Plant your feet, stand tall, and choose today to see the beauty it all that is, and what can be. If you’re holding something heavy in your heart – Act on it. Call that friend, send a nice text message, or breathe and let it go. Life begins when we choose to see clearly the light and love that is always around us. Embrace the uncertainties, the moments you want to cringe and fall, and let the Universe provide you with so much Love. Begin today to see yourself as a new vessel that carries light and sprinkles it wherever you go. Be aware. Notice what magic unveils when you choose to anchor Love, share love, and be love while sharing your authentic light with others to enjoy. Have a laugh. No worries, only humility and acceptance that some things must die, those emotions never lie… Act when you need, let your heart guide you to advance. Every day you can choose different, live better, make life beautiful. This Universe truly is Beauty, when we choose to see it that way…. Let yesterday be behind you, begin today with a new perspective and opportunity to begin again…


Monday Mantra ~ March 16, 2015 ~ Open to All

stayopenWow, three long ruthless years have passed and we are collectively at the end of a great Planetary Shift that has been happening. Hallelujah! We made it. Many are unaware of what has transpired, many have no idea, however many will begin to see the change that has been created and how much better life will be from this point on. For those that follow Astrology, 2012 was the beginning of the grand Pluto/Uranus Square which welcomed in many obstacles and challenges on and off in the past three years. For me, I’ve had tremendous change that has caused me to look reality in the face and do much inner self work. (Dont worry there is a whole long story about that). The Universe shook me hard and asked me to change so i could live happier and more in alignment with my soul. Though it was challenging, and a rocky ride, I have to say I’m in the best state ever today. Through relationships, teachers, and grand synchronicity opportunities, the Universe has created a world better than I ever knew possible. It began with my own desire to change and live a more fulfilling life that was beyond the top floor of a corporate ‘dream job’ I thought I had to have. God, The Universe, Spirit, Buddha, Whatever you want to call IT knows what is best for you. When you fight it, hide, or draw back in fear, you create more struggle for yourself. Always. There is no exception. It can be truly challenging to let go of friendships, people you love, and be an advocate for your own growth my saying NO to others. If you never open yourself up, you will never know what better opportunities the Universe has planned out for you.

This week we end the Grand Pluto/Uranus Square. For those conscious and aware, you will probably already know what this means and have an idea of what may surface. There have been all kinds of signs, messages, and tellings that are promoting you to act and change. What have you recieved and noticed? I imagine many people from the past will come up or come back in. Be mindful and act with intention. Breathe. Take a moment to decide who and what is truly serving YOU NOW. Be kind, and speak from your heart. The medicine of the soul is honest and true, and when you speak with love and openness there can never be any harm. Only joy and acceptance when people truthfully exchange words that are in alignment with what they want. Of course, many of us do not know how to act from our heart and still allow our Egos to sooth and dictate what is real. I invite anyone reading this to be cautious, especially as we transition this week into Spring. Let abundance in. Allow new opportunities to be explored. Trust in what is coming. Those messages and voices that continue to come up, are messages for you to act on. Stop ignoring the Universe. God wants to grant you a better and happier life. Surrender and change. This is the way in this New Age of Aquarius. It is vital to get onto your yoga mat, do the inner work and take on a meditate practice. Even if it’s only ten minutes with closed eye breathing. Everything counts. To stay open you need to learn to connect to the inherent answers within… This comes with meditation, with practice, and with your ability to focus on what only YOU know to be true.

Relax this week, listen to what your mind, body, & spirit are guiding you towards. Perhaps there are people you have lost touch with and want to rekindle with. Maybe there is someone you are drawn to that can help you. Perhaps you try a new teacher, or get some body work done. Any energy work this week will help you be more clear for the fresh energy that is coming with the Spring. Leave your fear to the past and open up…. have those conversations, write that letter or email, send a text of gratitude to those who have helped you get where you are. The last 3 years have been challenging. For Yogis,who are on the Spiritual Quest (you know who you are), we are all awakening and changing to live more centered in LOVE. Love is all that matters, whoever you are, it is up to you to Open up for it, share it, teach it, and most importantly Live it. Ego will battle you to stay withdrawn, closed, and disconnected. Let Love lead the way with an open heart, a clear mind, & endless opportunities that the Universe guides you with this week.

Should me a mysterious week with magic & more. Open you eyes, tune in to whats happening, and let your inner yearning me free by trusting and acting like a Yogi fully in Love with yourself – no fear, no anger, no pain, just Love 🙂

Cheers fellow Indigos, Yogis, Awakened Souls, & those still seeking… The we made it to the Golden Age & survived the storm of whatever had to happen for us to evolve. Be the Light, share the Light, & Love ❤

Stay Open. Stay Truthful. Be Honest, Be Free. Love & Enjoy the Magic!




DEVOTION: love, loyalty, or enthusiasm for a person, activity, or cause.

This word has been circulating throughout my day, in my thoughts, & in my head for the past few days. Devotion. What is devotion, & how is it different than desire? To be devoted is to be fully committed to you, yourself, and only what is true for you.

We think devotion is sticking to our routine, working out, eating right, & taking time to ‘work out’. No Devotion is a higher state of being. It goes beyond listening to mainstream society or doing as your do daily. Real devotion is a quality of the heart. It’s by your own inner guidance that you can transcend and choose what and who to be devoted to.

Desire is a dream, its an urge, a pulse, something that sounds, feels, and seems good. Devotion is your ability to stay committed – not to that dream that you think you desire, but to what you desire for yourself. See the difference? Devotion is full commitment to live your life as the person you ‘think’ you desire to be, and to authentically show up, even when the world may deem otherwise. We all have desire, & we think we know what we want, & we choose to create dreams & get set on what will happen. When you embrace Devotion – you know yourself is true. You do not need the desire, you can shed your limitation in thinking that is the way it will be, and you can instead live committed to You. Meaning, if you call yourself a yoga teacher, you live in light & love & treat others well & invoke Yogic principles. You don’t get on your mat, do some poses & breathing, then drive away flicking people off or cursing. You live your life devoted to your practice. Desire is the yoga teacher who thinks they need the ‘numbers’ the ‘physical’ challenge, or the ‘mask’ to perform in a space that is purely guided by your own desire, forgetting about the other in the room & what is best for them & others.

Devotion is the act of living from an authentic place that honors who you are. When you are able to remain completely devoted tSrimad-Bhagavatam-on-Having-Unflinching-Devotion-for-The-Supreme-Personality-of-Godheado yourself, you allow things to happen, and you yield yourself to the Universe and step forward into the unknown. Desire is the catalyst to devotion. We all have wishes, intentions, dreams, etc. Desire often catches the ego – when we stop being devoted. As you evolve you change, and with that, your desires change too.

Often we place our desire with ego attachment. For example, I’m doing this to make this amount of money, or I’m not helping you because I won’t get any money. Our ego overrides our desire. If you desire is more money, you need to be devoted to allowing more money. That may mean helping someone else achieve abundance themselves, or honoring someone else needing help. Our head overrides our heart all the time, or we let other people’s thoughts/egos tell us what to do, how to think, how to behave. People can help you, if they are living fully in truth and from a conscious place of connection. The others living from their own desire, without devotion to the whole, will tell you what you need to do to serve them. Thus, you help them achieve their desire, and disconnect from your own desire.


As we end this crazy year of 2014, I ask you to consider how devoted you have been to Yourself. What dreams to do wish to manifest this year? What have you achieved? And what more do you wish to accomplish before this years end?

images       Human nature gets busy, we forget, we get distracted, and we forget about what we committed for ourselves and our own well being. Desire is always there, and every day we are making choices to fill our desires. However, devotion is how desire is granted. Being devoted to your dreams, your wishes, your goals, is being able to truly root down and say ‘Yes’ to all you want to accomplish. In every moment, in every waking day, you set yourself up to achieve. That meaning, you show up from a place of love. You accept people when they tell you what they think you need to do, but you always check back in with you to see if that truly fits You.


If our desire is bigger than our devotion we will never achieve what our soul truly is asking us. You have desires, you manifest and create with devotion. To you, yourself, who you are, and who you wish to be. In the process, leaving fear behind, perhaps other people, and stay completely devoted to your desires.

When you are devoted you trust the process & surrender, stay aligned to what you heart desires and let your wishes fuel you forward in love & with joy. Let the journey continue, & stay devoted when you walk your unique path.



Liberate & Let Go ~ In Love

Where I live it does not feel like Fall. The sun is shinning the heat is high and the waves are still rolling. Something else is crashing and changing in San awesomeDiego. The heat wave is merely an example of the chaos and confusion I’ve personally experienced the last few months. We need to let go of what we think we know is good and best, and love. Open you heart, breakfree, and stop thinking. You don’t know what is best for you. You think you know. You find freedom by liberating yourself and breaking the barriers that are holding you back. You open up – trust you inner stillness – and let the beat of your heart carry you forward in remarkable ways.  You choices carry you forward. What holding you back from your inner beauty and awesomeness you were born to live? Liberate by letting go and accepting it’s time to make a change – within yourself, and with the rest of the world – to open our hearts more, be honest, and live connected to our heart center.


This massive planetary shift is happening. October is the month I deem of awakening where things will need to happen so we can all be on board with what we need to do to help this world transcend. Can you feel the liberation in you life? Opportunities are coming in, flowing in, for us all. We are ready and prepared to go forward, or are you holding yourself back in lower dimensions? Release the fear and replace it with trust. Know you are here for a reason and your spirit is asking you to freely fly forward.

Liberate yourself from the old and march on. People, thoughts, jobs, and ego patterns hold you back. They keep you binded and blocked from your loving potential. Let go. I see this Fall as a shift in everyones life, whether you are consciously aware of it or now. Things have to fall apart so they can be put back together – better. It’s natural order. The universe supports you with your choices, even if you hold on. I can promise more freedom for you, for your heart, when you stop trying and holding. Be You. Drop the worries, fears, and tap into your heart to connect and help you open up. You know people that you like to be around, you know who empowers you and deflates you. You know what things you do because you think you ‘should’. Get rid of it all and liberate your ego. Let your spirit take you forward with ease and grace, so we can all fly high together.


What is Liberation?

– The ability to feel good in your own skin

– To be honest with yourself, with who you are, and express yourself in loving ways that honor you and others

– To stop holding onto people who bring you down and don’t serve you in your best

– To take action where you need in your life to feel better and be happy

– To smile daily and let yourself walk your own path, despite what others are doing, saying, or reacting

– Accept yourself as you are, the things that are happening, and to love yourself most



Celebration of Purpose ~ On Living & Loving

And here it is, the end of May, almost the end of Spring and the end of a tremendous cycle of change and transition. Geez. What is the cosmic universe we live in and who are we and what is the purpose of it all? That I’m still asking, but each day it is becoming more clear and I triumph with how far I’ve come. This past year I’ve learned how to step into myself and find liberation fully in being me, living me, and loving me.loveself


Three years ago I started to ask the question, ‘what is my purpose?’ I suddenly was no longer satisfied working at a desk at my so called ‘dream job’ and something in me knew there had to be something more. My values began to change, new people began coming into my life, and I found myself choosing yoga beyond other activities like bar hopping. I was young but things that were once satisfying were no longer pleasing or enjoyable. I reached a point where I needed something more, a change, people who inspired me, a job that excited me, and something that would put a smile on my face. I yearned for happiness and a life that felt fulfilling. So in the magical year of 2011, on Memorial Weekend, I called up my friend and told her to enroll me in Yoga teacher training. She did not question it, in fact a few months prior, she had planted the seed. I did not know anything about the training, only the meeting dates. What I did know was I found happiness in the yoga studio, and despite whatever ‘real world’ problems I found, I always made it back onto my mat. Hot yoga had been a vessel for me to channel my emotions, my family issues, pain, and let me get into my body in new ways. It felt good, I liked it, and I chose to be there. I needed a shift in my life. I was unhappy and felt stagnant and lost. Although I had zero intention to teach, I craved being a student again and demystify what this yoga thing really is about and wanted to know why I was put on this planet.


Two years ago I was asked to audition at CorePower Yoga and by June 2012 I was hired. It’s funny where the universe begins to take you when you begin to open for it. By that time I had gotten laid off of my corporate job and was still asking that deeper question, ‘why am I here’ ‘why is this happening to me?’. I did not understand. I know now we never really will know what people come into our lives or what role they may play or what outcome we all may create. 2012 was an interesting year and as I began teaching yoga I learned how to tune into my own inner truth and self. For the first time I was doing something that was fulfilling me, and most importantly I was helping others find that inner piece that yoga helps us all connect to. People told me I was good at it, and it felt good knowing Best+Quote+wallpaper+funny+propossal+201.+Best+Quote+wallpaper+funny_043e0d_4853781I was finally doing something meaningful. I am so grateful for CorePower Yoga and all the amazing people who have helped me evolve, in the space, and in life. I learned quickly that teaching yoga was more than just showing up and explaining the body or physical poses. Real yoga is about learning how to be your own teacher, and take steps to grow in your own life – on the mat and off. The mat is the tool, the journey is your life. 2012 I learned how to become my own teacher, how to teach myself to find my own inner satisfaction. I learned how to show up, and how to respect the others, and how to find compassion in realizing that this crazy universe will always guide us in a direction that really is best – everything does happen for a reason, when you are willing to see it. I stepped into my power, learned to speak up, to hold space, give to others, and do something that I enjoyed.


Now this May, I reflect back on 2013 and celebrate one hell of a year. I have been gifted with many special teachers and people so connected to me, that they have guided me forward in my dharma and purpose. I celebrate me and where I was, and where I am now. This past year I had a special teacher (not in the yoga room) who was a friend, change roles in my life and it taught me how to grow within myself. This person did not communicate much with me much this year, however, the intensity of this connection and what I felt with it, drove me to reflect back on myself. After all, we are all merely reflections of one another, helping us grow and learn. The new question I asked was ‘What is this feeling?’ ‘why do I feel like this?’ This past year I have transformed and dealt with many lessons and woke up. I am learning what it’s like to love yourself and how to find love within. This teacher of mine, has reflected in me my own light and has inspired me to do the inner work and love myself – who I am, by body, and my own inner being. I did not know what was going on or why things were happening, I had to start listening though and was led to spiritual growth. 2013 has been about me recognizing that there is a divine power and a deep seated mystery that we will never know – let me call that ‘the universe.’ A year ago I was so confused and just going through the motions of becoming. This person showed me love, let me feel it, and in truth, intentionit was something so magical that words cannot describe the deep connection and feelings that were invoked. I had to asked the question and do the work though, and tune inward to find liberation. I had to learn to surrender, to stop asking why and to start trusting as I overcome to find complete harmony within myself.


This past year I’ve taken my yoga off my mat and have asked even deeper questions. I had some personal events take place and the pain and emotions were unbearable and quite confusing, and something that no one will every in this lifetime understand. This year I’ve healed myself; I’ve cried, I’ve journaled, and I’ve invoked new spiritual practices that I once thought were pointless, silly, or useless. The universe guided me to it, and I eventually reached a point where I could not help but believe. The universe gives you help when you ask, however, sometimes things happen and there is no real answer or explanation as to why. Things happen that we don’t understand. What I’ve learned is that there is a divine magic in the universe, and that people and things come together for reason and purpose. There are synchronistic events and nothing is by chance or coincidence. The universe has a plan, and it is up to use to do the best we can in the place we are at. We are a student on the mat, in the pose, but also in life. I asked the question, of why I am here, and what is the meaning of this thing called life? I knew it was beyond sitting at a desk, getting a paycheck, and finding the perfect mate. That’s silly. It’s about learning to be a student of your own life, asking your own questions, and taking the reins for yourself so your life can have direction and most importantly – meaning.


These past three years have been life changing. I do my yoga, I arrive on my mat. I yoga further with Teacher Training, where I learned what yoga was, then, without intention, I became a teacher in the yoga room. The universe did some wild things, brought in many people to help me, however it was not until this past year, after the inner work had been done, that I’m finally able to be at ease with life and where I am. The work never ends, the journey continues, but I find satisfaction in recognizing where I am and what I’ve overcame. I sit back this memorial weekend and reflect.. After the wildest three years of my life, I celebrate me – who I am now. I wanted happiness, I wanted to smile, and now three years later, I’ve learned what I was seeking all along was Love. Love for me, for who I am, and this spirit within me that has been yearning to come out. Yoga is the science, lifestyle, and vessel I believe everyone can benefit from. It teaches us divine Union – how to come back into ourselves and who we really are. Yoga found me, teachers navigated me forward, and spirituality found me, but I had to do the work to find , and continue to find, Union within mlovethisyouyself.


I believe that people can tell you what you need to do and should accomplish, but the real magic happens when you are able to listen to yourself. To tune into what you want, and instead of talking about it and wondering, take an active stance to make a change. I have been blessed in the past three years to have many connections and profound teachers come into my life. They have helped me grow, they have taught me on the mat and beyond, and have let me become who I am today. I will always be grateful. However, my own journey only started because I knew I wanted more for myself. Today I celebrate my own accomplishments and my own journey. I asked the question three years ago, and now I’m so much more clear. It is said you need to love yourself first to find love. I believe it. I did not know what love was, but I felt there was something more for me, and I’ve learned to find it within myself. I now live my life doing things that I enjoy and love. I stopped seeking outside answers, and chose to take an inner journey and to breathe into mind, body, and heart, and learn to unlock who I really am. It took me three years to transform. I now choose love. Love for myself, for who I am, and for what I enjoy. I trust the universe as it guides me forward, and I keep a genuine smile on my face as I continue to master how to love myself, love others, and love life as I step into my purpose and radiate my own light in ways to serve myself and also others.