When Life Seems to Fall Apart…

About 2-4 years ago I had a massive transit happen that shifted everything in my life, in myself and caused me to reevaluate every to be true. What happened? Well I found Yoga, I mean real yoga, and began the process of getting out of the pose and normal everyday routine to discover something deeper… In that same year I lost everything and virtually every piece of my life fell apart: I got laid off, I had no job and was not able to get another easy job, my car broke, my cat died, my friends fell away, and old connections that were once meaningful randomly disappeared, as if vanished by thin air. My body changed, my choices changed, my socializing hours took a halt, and new peace was found in the simplicity of stillness. Life…well it took a drastic turn and all I had going for me was a beautiful beach I could sit on with unemployment money and some San Diego sunshine to ponder what the real purpose of life really was…

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It did not matter that everything fell apart, I was actually over joyed that finally the desk and prolonged hours of sitting was no longer a mandatory wake up drive and necessity. The negative people and late night bar activities that seemed to be the only social option faded, and finally I was able to get back to something so much better that no shot or one night stand option could ever satisfy. It was liberating for me to be totally free and able to choose a new beginning and finally be out of the toxic environment where working for a paycheck and a bottle of chardonnay at the end of the day seemed like the happy prize for sitting cramped, stuck, bored, and totally unfulfilled. What I did not know is something else was calling, and that need within me to move, do, act, and be creative as the happy soul I knew myself to be was finally ready to break through and become someone more in alignment with who I knew myself to be… That old world paradigm of get up, go to work, have a job, eat, sleep and do it again was a routine I was unwilling and unable to follow anymore. So in my loss, and with everything falling away and dying, I was left alone to sit, wonder, contemplate, and ponder what I was really seeking and where I could go, what I could do to actually live a life of meaning and purpose and really wake up daily and be happy….

A lot has happened since then, even more has changed, and I’ve developed on a higher road of understanding the real meaning of letting go, and realizing yourself once more… There is journey, and to get on it, often things crumble so you can rebuild to a better state….

…When life falls apart, things change, and it seems like nothing is going in your direction, it is easy to fall into a trap, hold on, and lie and cheat whatever is trying to change. When destruction happens, the world you knew tumbles, and you are left alone, in panic, with fear, it is a sign and a blessing to help you breakthrough and find a better road that will take you somewhere happier…. Change is inevitable, and when you avoid it, shit will surmount. There is no hiding what the Universe wants you to know. Though in the misery, the tangled world that becomes scary like a horror movie will be no easy walk in the woods, when you come out from the dark shells that have bound you, you will look back and remember and see why you had to experience the rough road and tough times to get you to a better place….  You can always find a better place than where you are.

There is always a better road, and easier way to handle things, and a more peaceful place you can be. When you find the right road that really works for you, it can be scary to get on it, trust it, and leave everything behind to find it…. When the Universe beckons you to awaken, life is easier when you follow the call to awaken your heart and live with your higher soul as a brighter and happier force…… Sometimes change is inevitable, and in this new age there is no hiding from the power that wants us all to live happier, be free, and love better….

May the Summer bring you fate, show you destiny, & may the changes, and twists and turns of fate steer you in a better direction. May you evolve and become the person you KNOW yourself to be…. May you trust your journey, whatever may come on it…. Happy Summer & enjoy the change  ❤ YES YOU CAN!!!

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Faith with Joy

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Enjoy whatever this moment brings & cultivate joy with accepting Life as the grand game it truly is…

Put a pause on that mental and internal player that is causing you to react, wonder, question, and more….Pause. Breathe. Trust. This moment is all you have. Reflect. Let go of the why or the causation that may have brought you to this place. Be Present. Take a deep breathe. Let this moment be what it is, as it is. Life happens. Let everything fall into place.

There are many things I believe we have no control over. Things can be good, things can go wrong, things will never be what we expect them to be. There is peace in it all and a mystical truth of accepting the divine grace that happens. Let things be so. In the higher aspect of life, this moment is insignificant. It can change. It will change. Accept you in this moment here. Things will pass. Things will get better. Have faith in yourself and accept the only thing that matters –> You. Let it be so. Be happy with whatever is or is not and let your own energy uplift you forward. Only you can change. Be happy with faith that of whatever the Universe steers you toward, and however Life happens…. Enjoy!

Monday Mantra ~ March 16, 2015 ~ Open to All

stayopenWow, three long ruthless years have passed and we are collectively at the end of a great Planetary Shift that has been happening. Hallelujah! We made it. Many are unaware of what has transpired, many have no idea, however many will begin to see the change that has been created and how much better life will be from this point on. For those that follow Astrology, 2012 was the beginning of the grand Pluto/Uranus Square which welcomed in many obstacles and challenges on and off in the past three years. For me, I’ve had tremendous change that has caused me to look reality in the face and do much inner self work. (Dont worry there is a whole long story about that). The Universe shook me hard and asked me to change so i could live happier and more in alignment with my soul. Though it was challenging, and a rocky ride, I have to say I’m in the best state ever today. Through relationships, teachers, and grand synchronicity opportunities, the Universe has created a world better than I ever knew possible. It began with my own desire to change and live a more fulfilling life that was beyond the top floor of a corporate ‘dream job’ I thought I had to have. God, The Universe, Spirit, Buddha, Whatever you want to call IT knows what is best for you. When you fight it, hide, or draw back in fear, you create more struggle for yourself. Always. There is no exception. It can be truly challenging to let go of friendships, people you love, and be an advocate for your own growth my saying NO to others. If you never open yourself up, you will never know what better opportunities the Universe has planned out for you.

This week we end the Grand Pluto/Uranus Square. For those conscious and aware, you will probably already know what this means and have an idea of what may surface. There have been all kinds of signs, messages, and tellings that are promoting you to act and change. What have you recieved and noticed? I imagine many people from the past will come up or come back in. Be mindful and act with intention. Breathe. Take a moment to decide who and what is truly serving YOU NOW. Be kind, and speak from your heart. The medicine of the soul is honest and true, and when you speak with love and openness there can never be any harm. Only joy and acceptance when people truthfully exchange words that are in alignment with what they want. Of course, many of us do not know how to act from our heart and still allow our Egos to sooth and dictate what is real. I invite anyone reading this to be cautious, especially as we transition this week into Spring. Let abundance in. Allow new opportunities to be explored. Trust in what is coming. Those messages and voices that continue to come up, are messages for you to act on. Stop ignoring the Universe. God wants to grant you a better and happier life. Surrender and change. This is the way in this New Age of Aquarius. It is vital to get onto your yoga mat, do the inner work and take on a meditate practice. Even if it’s only ten minutes with closed eye breathing. Everything counts. To stay open you need to learn to connect to the inherent answers within… This comes with meditation, with practice, and with your ability to focus on what only YOU know to be true.

Relax this week, listen to what your mind, body, & spirit are guiding you towards. Perhaps there are people you have lost touch with and want to rekindle with. Maybe there is someone you are drawn to that can help you. Perhaps you try a new teacher, or get some body work done. Any energy work this week will help you be more clear for the fresh energy that is coming with the Spring. Leave your fear to the past and open up…. have those conversations, write that letter or email, send a text of gratitude to those who have helped you get where you are. The last 3 years have been challenging. For Yogis,who are on the Spiritual Quest (you know who you are), we are all awakening and changing to live more centered in LOVE. Love is all that matters, whoever you are, it is up to you to Open up for it, share it, teach it, and most importantly Live it. Ego will battle you to stay withdrawn, closed, and disconnected. Let Love lead the way with an open heart, a clear mind, & endless opportunities that the Universe guides you with this week.

Should me a mysterious week with magic & more. Open you eyes, tune in to whats happening, and let your inner yearning me free by trusting and acting like a Yogi fully in Love with yourself – no fear, no anger, no pain, just Love 🙂

Cheers fellow Indigos, Yogis, Awakened Souls, & those still seeking… The we made it to the Golden Age & survived the storm of whatever had to happen for us to evolve. Be the Light, share the Light, & Love ❤

Stay Open. Stay Truthful. Be Honest, Be Free. Love & Enjoy the Magic!

Be Free.

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“It’s the pure exploration of living that allows us to expand & navigate toward higher mountains. It’s listening to the soul within your own self that guides you, to tred on, never stop learning, be open to giving, & lead yourself on the highest path to Freedom. Be Free. Pause to breathe. Take life In. Wander Often. Live Better…. Open your eyes & heart to more…” [Kali Bliss]

I’ve taken some time to myself recently. After the hectic Uranus/Square and Karma circumstances life dealt me, I needed a fresh breathe of relaxation and jet setting. I’m enjoying the sweet nuances of life, and the endless beauty that can be seen every day if you take a moment to pause and recognize it. Life is beautiful. Your freedom comes from recognizing it and letting yourself flow towards things and people that you gravitate toward. Soul connections can always be found, and friends, family, relationships, and more help you grow better so you can follow your spirit within. Be free to Wander. Give thanks for every person you engage with. Trust your own journey into Spirit, beyond that, into your own Self. Freedom comes from trusting your heart, and listening to the wisdom and desires within.

~*~ Kali Bliss ~*~

DEVOTION.

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DEVOTION: love, loyalty, or enthusiasm for a person, activity, or cause.

This word has been circulating throughout my day, in my thoughts, & in my head for the past few days. Devotion. What is devotion, & how is it different than desire? To be devoted is to be fully committed to you, yourself, and only what is true for you.

We think devotion is sticking to our routine, working out, eating right, & taking time to ‘work out’. No Devotion is a higher state of being. It goes beyond listening to mainstream society or doing as your do daily. Real devotion is a quality of the heart. It’s by your own inner guidance that you can transcend and choose what and who to be devoted to.

Desire is a dream, its an urge, a pulse, something that sounds, feels, and seems good. Devotion is your ability to stay committed – not to that dream that you think you desire, but to what you desire for yourself. See the difference? Devotion is full commitment to live your life as the person you ‘think’ you desire to be, and to authentically show up, even when the world may deem otherwise. We all have desire, & we think we know what we want, & we choose to create dreams & get set on what will happen. When you embrace Devotion – you know yourself is true. You do not need the desire, you can shed your limitation in thinking that is the way it will be, and you can instead live committed to You. Meaning, if you call yourself a yoga teacher, you live in light & love & treat others well & invoke Yogic principles. You don’t get on your mat, do some poses & breathing, then drive away flicking people off or cursing. You live your life devoted to your practice. Desire is the yoga teacher who thinks they need the ‘numbers’ the ‘physical’ challenge, or the ‘mask’ to perform in a space that is purely guided by your own desire, forgetting about the other in the room & what is best for them & others.

Devotion is the act of living from an authentic place that honors who you are. When you are able to remain completely devoted tSrimad-Bhagavatam-on-Having-Unflinching-Devotion-for-The-Supreme-Personality-of-Godheado yourself, you allow things to happen, and you yield yourself to the Universe and step forward into the unknown. Desire is the catalyst to devotion. We all have wishes, intentions, dreams, etc. Desire often catches the ego – when we stop being devoted. As you evolve you change, and with that, your desires change too.

Often we place our desire with ego attachment. For example, I’m doing this to make this amount of money, or I’m not helping you because I won’t get any money. Our ego overrides our desire. If you desire is more money, you need to be devoted to allowing more money. That may mean helping someone else achieve abundance themselves, or honoring someone else needing help. Our head overrides our heart all the time, or we let other people’s thoughts/egos tell us what to do, how to think, how to behave. People can help you, if they are living fully in truth and from a conscious place of connection. The others living from their own desire, without devotion to the whole, will tell you what you need to do to serve them. Thus, you help them achieve their desire, and disconnect from your own desire.

 

As we end this crazy year of 2014, I ask you to consider how devoted you have been to Yourself. What dreams to do wish to manifest this year? What have you achieved? And what more do you wish to accomplish before this years end?

images       Human nature gets busy, we forget, we get distracted, and we forget about what we committed for ourselves and our own well being. Desire is always there, and every day we are making choices to fill our desires. However, devotion is how desire is granted. Being devoted to your dreams, your wishes, your goals, is being able to truly root down and say ‘Yes’ to all you want to accomplish. In every moment, in every waking day, you set yourself up to achieve. That meaning, you show up from a place of love. You accept people when they tell you what they think you need to do, but you always check back in with you to see if that truly fits You.

 

If our desire is bigger than our devotion we will never achieve what our soul truly is asking us. You have desires, you manifest and create with devotion. To you, yourself, who you are, and who you wish to be. In the process, leaving fear behind, perhaps other people, and stay completely devoted to your desires.

When you are devoted you trust the process & surrender, stay aligned to what you heart desires and let your wishes fuel you forward in love & with joy. Let the journey continue, & stay devoted when you walk your unique path.

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The New Age Yogi – Authentic, Real, or Phonie?

It is so interesting to watch how people awaken and what actions and steps they take to help fulfill themselves. I work at a yoga studio and see many people make it to their mat on a routine basis. I see people wanting to grow and thrive. I’ve witnessed teachers feeling better about life after learning about what Yoga is and doing teacher trainings. It’s remarkable. How they show up, what they do outside, how they treat others, what they say, and what they do to ‘promote’ themselves though is another story. Yoga is meant to help you shed the ego, not build more ego and remain in your own self centered actions & patterns. Yoga is about living in this world with a purpose to serve, and help everyone feel better, more loved, more joyful.

trueyogaYoga teaches us to be our own authentic self. It is not about getting to that popular class, or having a certain teacher, or even working out. Yoga is  science that helps you expand so you can be the best version of you. So you can create abundance and joy in your world. We meet teachers who inspire us and help us see the light. Ultimately, it’s about being you own teacher and learning to let go ego centered patterns so you can live more in alignment with your own self.

I laugh a lot at the funny world I now live in. Yogis? We are weird people, well everyone is weird to some degree. We all make mistakes, do things unconsciously, and we all are seeking to be better. That’s truth. The real path of a yogi is about being you and living it. There is hope for humanity when we choose to expand and look with in and go within. I see so many people posting photos about their remarkable transformation, new muscle tone, body, handstand, whatever. Stop. Instead of showing, how about living? Live the Yogic life. Make it your mat because you are ready to do the work, breathe, calm down, and help fill the world with more peace, light, and love.

The ego will always get you, unless you rein it and brush it aside. Personally, I see many people in my workforce or industry locally seeking other peoples ideas and copying or rewriting. I call this phonie. If you are going to take someone’s words, ideas, or use their creativity, you should at lease give credit. I set up some business stuff and the next week saw others rewarding my personal phrases on their own shit. Funny. Are you living your truth? Probably not. But hey, your instagram photos of you in a bikinni or flexing your new bicep, might circulate a like. Congrats. My words are real, honest, and my truth. I don’t need to post a picture of it, share what I ate, or babble all over my own social media to generate likes or love. I can create my own ideas and share my gifts because I’m seeking within, not looking around. Yoga is a powerful practice. It can transform you. You need to seek within though. Drop the ego, stop wanting the likes, the clicks, and thinking you are better than everyone else simply because. We are all connected and here to empower another and live in our Truth. If that is copying, posting, and whatever ego centered I call bullshit fad, then have fun. Great that works for you. Real light and authenticity comes from tapping in spiritually, connecting, and doing things that serve the planet and are written in your own truth.

I am so honored to have found yoga. I’ve figured it out for myself. It feels wonderful that other ‘yogis’ come to my classes, see how I show up, and see words I’ve written, and are ‘inspired’ to rewrite them or copy my own efforts. Its funny. At least thank me for the inspiration or honor who I am to my face. I hope you have the courage one day to walk your own path of truth, live authentically in your own light. The world needs more real Yogis, not phonies. We all need to grow, learn, and serve with purpose. That’s the yogi way. I smile still, I honor those ego qualities in others, and I still love and accept them for who they are though. Hoping they can awaken and have the courage to live, breathe, be, and grow.

 

**Liberation**

Liberate & Let Go ~ In Love

Where I live it does not feel like Fall. The sun is shinning the heat is high and the waves are still rolling. Something else is crashing and changing in San awesomeDiego. The heat wave is merely an example of the chaos and confusion I’ve personally experienced the last few months. We need to let go of what we think we know is good and best, and love. Open you heart, breakfree, and stop thinking. You don’t know what is best for you. You think you know. You find freedom by liberating yourself and breaking the barriers that are holding you back. You open up – trust you inner stillness – and let the beat of your heart carry you forward in remarkable ways.  You choices carry you forward. What holding you back from your inner beauty and awesomeness you were born to live? Liberate by letting go and accepting it’s time to make a change – within yourself, and with the rest of the world – to open our hearts more, be honest, and live connected to our heart center.

 

This massive planetary shift is happening. October is the month I deem of awakening where things will need to happen so we can all be on board with what we need to do to help this world transcend. Can you feel the liberation in you life? Opportunities are coming in, flowing in, for us all. We are ready and prepared to go forward, or are you holding yourself back in lower dimensions? Release the fear and replace it with trust. Know you are here for a reason and your spirit is asking you to freely fly forward.

Liberate yourself from the old and march on. People, thoughts, jobs, and ego patterns hold you back. They keep you binded and blocked from your loving potential. Let go. I see this Fall as a shift in everyones life, whether you are consciously aware of it or now. Things have to fall apart so they can be put back together – better. It’s natural order. The universe supports you with your choices, even if you hold on. I can promise more freedom for you, for your heart, when you stop trying and holding. Be You. Drop the worries, fears, and tap into your heart to connect and help you open up. You know people that you like to be around, you know who empowers you and deflates you. You know what things you do because you think you ‘should’. Get rid of it all and liberate your ego. Let your spirit take you forward with ease and grace, so we can all fly high together.

 

What is Liberation?

– The ability to feel good in your own skin

– To be honest with yourself, with who you are, and express yourself in loving ways that honor you and others

– To stop holding onto people who bring you down and don’t serve you in your best

– To take action where you need in your life to feel better and be happy

– To smile daily and let yourself walk your own path, despite what others are doing, saying, or reacting

– Accept yourself as you are, the things that are happening, and to love yourself most

 

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